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Entries for February, 2006

February 3rd, 2006

La Culture Sexuelle Des Asiatiques

Posted by kinkylube at 04:51 PM on February 3, 2006 in Journal.

First, there's a way of doing something. You get used to it and it becomes a habit. And once habit sets in, it becomes a culture. This makes sense in terms of society as a collective of individuals. Take a look around you. English on the radio, English on television, English on the net, spoken and written all around you. You speak it, you write it, you comprehend it. I am speaking to you in it, and yet I am not white and my eyes are not blue. Absurd, isn't it? We breathe in it, think in it, express our love in it, and when we fuck...

    Just how much of the way we make love is a product of Western cultural imperialism? This is not a lamentation, merely a questioning of who we are, sexually, as Asians.

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February 4th, 2006

Baptism of Fire

Posted by kinkylube at 11:01 AM on February 4, 2006 in Journal.

Listening to downtempo music in the morning, fiction or not, does it matter? Banging someone's else's wife (OPP, you don't know me) is neither a triumph nor something to be proud of. Well, actually it IS both a triumph and something to be proud of, depending on the context. Doesn't everything happen for a reason? Baptism of fire, and all that shit? I believe that you don't really really know love and its infinite intricacies until you've been burnt and scorched to the bone.  

    I'm rising out of the ashes of yet another baptism, only this time it's work-related. Life is a learning process.
 

Currently feeling: refreshed

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The Pleasures of Monogamy

Posted by kinkylube at 11:19 AM on February 4, 2006 in Journal.

Monogamy is not for everyone, but it is for Neko and I. My mind remains promiscuous; we continue to remain hopeful for that elusive ménage à trois with another woman, "hopeful" and "elusive" being the keywords.

    Woke up to some serious morning wood and a very horny and playful Neko this morning.  I told her I yearned for some loving suction and she immediately got to work. I wasn't really in the mood for intercourse, and I had the impression she wasn't either, but we went ahead and tried it anyway. As it is with some mornings, things were predictably tighter than usual, so we stopped. After all, it's my pussy too. (Love what you have!)

    I pulled out and she gave my cream-laden wood more suction and then we just lay in bed talking about this and that.

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February 5th, 2006

Rude Sex

Posted by kinkylube at 11:26 AM on February 5, 2006 in Journal.

In the darkness of our bedroom this morning, between wakefulness and sleep I awoke with her breasts in mind. I felt one of her nipples and absentmindedly began to tweak it through the material of her nightie. I didn't know what came over me, but I was getting terribly aroused, my cock bloating up like an automatic balloon. 

    Neko doesn't like being stirred from her sleep, and faithful readers would know this. So I proceeded with caution and a readiness to be rudely rebuffed for my enthusiasm. I moved my hand to her crotch, which was covered with a blanket, and fitted my fingers snugly on top of that V between her thighs. I began feeling her up, noting to myself how great the shape of her cunt felt. She did not react, and seemed to be deep in slumber. Could she be pretending? I hesitated, but proceeded anyway, throwing caution to the wind and whatnot, my cock already a veritable pole in the tent of my briefs.

   I let my hand slip under the blanket and this time, placed my fingers snugly on top of her panty-covered crotch. I felt her up again, and once again, no reaction. She really seemed to be asleep. I ventured further and slipped my hand into her cotton panties, went past the tuft of pubic hair and reached her meat, and began feeling her up for real. My fingers parted her folds and I gently snaked a finger into her. When I felt how moist she was inside, I felt a tingle set off somewhere in my cock. I began fingering her, and as I gained momentum I felt her walls becoming all squishy inside. She stirred a little, but my finger was already fucking her, so there was really no point to stop. A meaningless sound came from her, and I pulled my briefs and her panties off in a hurry, scrambling to get my cock into her. 

   It was a rough and tumble fuck, and as I whispered obscenities into her ears all the way, we managed three positions until I succumbed whilst fucking her from behind. By this time she was fully awake, and as I pulled out she held her palms out in front of her like a beggar begging for alms. Having no choice, I donated a generous amount of cream into her greedy hands, which she then smeared all over her face and upon my shrunken balls.

 

  
 

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February 12th, 2006

Therapy - Retail and Visual

Posted by kinkylube at 12:59 AM on February 12, 2006 in Journal.

Retail therapy. How I hate that word. I hate it almost as much as I hate the word "cum." But retail therapy is real, and it works. After a week of work-related pressure, it's always good to have the weekend to look forward to. Visiting shopping malls and not buying anything always gets me down. Neko bought herself a pair of shoes and me a necklace. Together we bought some glow-in-the-dark stars, which we stuck to the ceiling of our bedroom. Some of you probably think it's fucking childish, but hey, I think we're all entitled to some claim of a deprived childhood at some point in our lives.

    So now that we have our very own night sky in our bedroom, Neko and I can look forward to some heavy sex under the stars.

    In other news, Neko and I were driving around hunting for a new place to lunch when we spotted this voluptuous body of an absolutely slutty MILF dressed in an orange tanktop and a supertight, supershort pair of white shorts. She was well-coiffed and really knew how to work her legs to maximise the visual effects of her ass in those shorts.

   Pervert and lecher that I am, I pretty much almost lost control as I pulled over and fumbled for my camera. Alas, there was to be no happy ending for this sighting when we both saw her getting into a car and then, driving off. I was disappointed, sure, but like Neko said, there are always other things to look forward to. Long as we have eyes and an attention to details, we will always benefit from the erotic fortuity of everyday life. Throughout the course of the day, the well-coiffed MILF in the white shorts was pretty much the highlight of the day.

  

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February 13th, 2006

Raw Feed Visual Sex Vignettes: The Milk of MILF

Posted by kinkylube at 03:48 PM on February 13, 2006 in Journal.

There are daily yields to be made, erotic crops to be harvested during trips here and there, while on foot or driving.

Vignette Nr 1

    Nursing bra, an eroticism that is everywhere. She was wearing a nursing bra under her t-shirt. I could tell by just looking at the outline. She was pushing her baby in a stroller, her nipples poking painfully against the material of her tee, and I imagined her with her t-shirt off, her nursing bra like some sort of harness set taut against her torso supporting her heavy, milk-laden breasts, suggesting to me its sadomasochistic connotations the way gun holsters do. These elaborate daydreams...they're not even daydreams really, merely an aesthetic exercise in my head, rearranging reality, altering it to suit my pornographic sensibilities. Spotting a young mother pushing a stroller or carrying her toddler, I uncover her clothes and reveal to myself her milk-swollen breasts and her dark, rubbery nipples.

Vignette Nr 2

   Fortuitous day today. Caught generous eyefuls of the panty-clad crotch of a motherly and robust-looking Indian woman. She had a head of full-bodied, jet-black hair, wavy and shoulder-length. She was sitting on top of a flight of stairs next to the pavement, and as her children ran around she chatted with her friend. She was obviously absent-minded (I don't think she was flashing) sitting there in a long skirt with her tanned legs set wide apart. I saw all the way up her crotch and more...her dark inner thighs and the white, lacy panties that were hugging her plump snatch tight.

Vignette Nr 3 

   Today, rain clouds in the sky, an encounter with someone's young mother; short haired, bespectacled, ripe. As she reached for the door our eyes met and I sensed with peripheral vision...framed between two buttons of her shirt...a slit stretched wide open...a tantalising glimpse of a milky breast bulging out from a bra...

   "Her breasts were knocking together from the sheer force of his thrusts from behind, and as she bleated like a lamb being skewered to death, jets upon jets of milk burst forth from her fat and shockingly dark nipples."

   Later, as she sat down I greedily noticed how the material of her pants stretched tight and wide around her perfectly-rounded ass, and wished how I was the chair with my cock sticking out and curving upwards into her creamy cunt.
 

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February 16th, 2006

Afternoons of Love

Posted by kinkylube at 12:20 PM on February 16, 2006 in Journal.

Last weekend, I practically overdosed on DVDs. Off the top of my head, I watched Red Eye, The Creature from Black Lagoon, Ma Mère, and Godzilla: Final Wars. While Red Eye was entertaining, it's not the plot that I wanna talk about here. It's Rachel McAdams. There's something about that high forehead and jaw of hers that I find so damned attractive. I guess it's mainly because she reminds me of anna, the type whom I love to shag and fantasise about having a relationship with. Hmm...that sounded pretty twisted. I never really thought about it this way.

    Someone I love to just fuck and fantasise about having a relationship with.

    On this warm, sunny afternoon, this absolutely gorgeous downtempo track conjured for me memories of walking along the downtown university campus with her on a sunny winter day. Our classes are done for the day, and we had the rest of the afternoon to partake in whatever pseudo-courtship/pre-sex activities that pleased us. Coffee, shopping, bookstores and a movie maybe, where vague notions of love lurked at every nuance and inflection of our body language as we chatted, walked, laughed, and regarded one another with hungry eyes.

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Inspired Fucking

Posted by kinkylube at 01:55 PM on February 16, 2006 in Journal.

Neko and I had a goosebump-inducing, inspirational fuck session in someone's else's empty bedroom this afternoon. Shot some painfully filthy images as well. I promise there will be photos in coming posts. So lurkers, if you're a fan of this blog, identify yourselves!

    It's simply amazing how Inspiration arrives when I'm about to leave the house. There's absolutely no excuse for procrastination, but for who I am, I think my reasons are pretty valid. 

    Looking at the photos I'm wondering if there's a study somewhere on the Aesthetics of Pornography, or Pornography as an Art Form. Porn that's hard and raw, vulgar, filthy, and most importantly, with a heart, and real.  

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February 19th, 2006

The Cream of Love

Posted by kinkylube at 12:28 PM on February 19, 2006 in Journal.

Some days are better than others and by the time we reached home yesterday, Neko and I were dead tired. I was sitting in front of the computer, and after looking through some japorn film clips, my horniness began to itch.

    I stripped off my briefs, sat down next to her and asked if I could borrow her cunt for a while. Though she didn't mind --- in fact, she was rather accomodating --- I knew she was tired, and I reassured her that it would be just a little dip, because I wanted us to save our horniness for tomorrow's photo session. She leaned over and used her mouth on me till I was all hard and ready.

    As I slipped into her I had the thought of simply collapsing over her and falling asleep, but I didn't, of course. Instead, I buried my face in the comfort of her neck and drank in that familiar, feminine scent of hers as I continued my lazy drilling. The filthy schlap-schlap starchy sounds of fucking was absolutely music to my ears. When I looked down, lo and behold, there was cream, and in rather copious amounts too.

    For me, the cream that squishes and flows from her cunt is one of the testaments to all that I have done right in our relationship. Later, when we were engaged in post-coital talk (it was a short dip, as promised, and neither of us had an orgasm), she admitted, as I did, that she wasn't really in the mood for sex, but somehow her body reacted to the motions, and hence, the cream and all her twitches and cringes.

    The tumescence of my cock, the softness of her cunt, lubricated by her cream, maintained with our love.  

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February 20th, 2006

Do I Make You Horny, Baby?

Posted by kinkylube at 11:55 PM on February 20, 2006 in Journal.

That photograph of m sitting on the floor pulling her boots on, smiling at me as I photographed her, was taken right after we fucked, or made love, in that anguished and unbearable way.

The obscenity of fucking someone else's wife; it was one with the white, sticky gum that clung to my cock as I went in and out of her. That expression on her face, her open mouth, her tongue, her gritted teeth, her glasses, her beautiful eyes, her brown skin, her expression that alternated between helplessness and glee...she was "happily getting fucked," and what a slut she was, letting another man who was not her husband stick his cock into her, the very thought adding fuel to the fury of my thrusts, and as we lewdly say, "churning her butter," making those gloppy, squishy sounds. I looked down and saw that the entire length of my cock was slick with her white cream. And the bitch (I'm sorry, I really am) loved every single inch of me, or else she wouldn't have gotten so creamy.

    I was young, and she used me. I'm over it a long time ago, but in the spirit of nostalgia I thought I'd indulge in some petty spite. Who knows, this post might actually make someone horny. Tell me if you do, cos' I'd really like to know.

 

Currently listening to: After Hours Vol. 1 - Creme de La Creme

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February 21st, 2006

Retro Hot Bodies that Used to Terrify Me

Posted by kinkylube at 03:25 AM on February 21, 2006 in Journal.

       In George Bataille's novel Ma Mère, there's a scene where the protagonist of the story grovels in his father's cachet of filthy porn (much like a pig in shit) after his mother hands him the key to his deceased father's study. In Christophe Honoré's adaptation of the story into a film of the same name, this scene remains my favourite. Here's an excerpt from the novel:

    It was then that I made an unusual discovery. Lodged behind the books, in the glass-fronted bookcases my father had kept locked but to which my mother had given me the keys, I came upon a heap of photographs. Most of them were dusty. But in an instant I saw that they were incredibly obscene. I reddened, I clenched my teeth and I was obliged to sit down but I still had a sheaf of those repulsive photographs in my hand. My impulse was to rush out of there, but I had to do something with them, to get rid of them before my mother's return. Feverishly, I stacked them, made them into piles. Upon the tables where I put them I piled them too high, they fell, I surveyed the disaster: scatttered by the dozen, those picture lay strewn upon the carpet, unspeakable and at the same time compelling. Could I have fought against the rising tide? I looked at those pictures and trembled but I made the trembling last. I lost control and helplessly sent the remaining piles flying. But I had to pick them back up...My father, my mother and this swamp of obscenity...out of despair I decided to follow this horror through. I stared at what I was already grasping in my hand, like an ape; I wrapped myself in the dust and took off my trousers.

   Interwoven joy and terror strangled me within. I strangled and gasped from pleasure. The more the pictures terrified me, the more intense was my excitement at the sight of them. After days of accumulating alarms, tensions, suffocations, I was beyond withstanding my own ignominy. I invoked it and I blessed it. It was my inevitable fate: my joy was all the greater since, with regard to life, I had long since entrenched myself in the attitude of suffering, and now, in the throes of delight, I progressed even farther into vileness and degradation. I sensed that I was damned, I defiled myself before the filth in which my father --- and perhaps my mother too --- had wallowed.
 

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February 23rd, 2006

Precocious Schoolgirl

Posted by kinkylube at 03:57 PM on February 23, 2006 in Journal.

Precocious schoolgirl of seventeen

what the fuck were you thinking,

coming on to me like that.

Oh I know

just what you were thinking;

being the father and king 

of your dirtiest dreams. 

While your face is so-so,

I give top marks for your ass,

your lovely teardrop Valentine ass

which I'd love to knead and squeeze

as I fuck you from behind

in my dreams tonight. 

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February 24th, 2006

Wench, You Quench My Thirst

Posted by kinkylube at 01:38 AM on February 24, 2006 in Journal.

In this scorching tropical heat, that image of you,

in the coolness of the pool,

is enough to quench this erotic thirst that only such afternoons can bring. 

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February 26th, 2006

The Isle of Eros

Posted by kinkylube at 12:40 PM on February 26, 2006 in Journal.

 Maybe it's the hot weather, but lately I've been seeing things in poetry. Under the sweltering weather, the absence of work made me a little guilty, so I closed my eyes and told myself that we're here to enjoy ourselves by doing absolutely nothing. An hour or so later, brown and bronzed, we snuck back into our room and indulged ourselves in a little pre-siesta sex play, exploring our bodies the way children do. At around noon, we woke up and enjoyed yet another meal of seafood that reminded us of our own lubricious genitalia.

    A little walk after a heavy meal is always good, so we walked to a place that rented out bicycles. We got our bikes and cycled round the island. When we reached a mini-fishing village, we caught sight of a fisherman's wife and teenaged daughter doing their laundry and putting some shrimps out to dry. Though both were wrapped in sarong and loose t-shirts, I could tell from their movements that they were endowed with breasts worthy of Russ Meyer.

    Island folks are known for their hospitality, and taking advantage of this we asked if we could use their bathroom. Smiling warmly, the older of the two beckoned us in. Either it was my imagination or the pleasant reek of shrimp that hung in the air, but a vague scent of sex seem to linger in the small darkened space of their living room. Mother and daughter resumed doing their thing; as Neko relieved herself, I stood at the doorway and enjoyed the free show. Ever contemplative, looking at them amidst the sound of Neko's gushing piss reminded me of what sexy really meant.

    The bathroom door creaked open and Neko stepped out with a smile on her face. And just as we were about to walk down the stairs, rain started to fall. It was the kind of powdery rain that could only mean we wll be stranded there for a while. The rain hardly seemed to bother them. Though they made an effort to cover their shrimps with huge sheets of plastic, they didn't bother with their laundry at all. There was not a shred of hurry in their movements, and this made me think about how much we are shaped by the environment that we live in. As they made their way towards the stairs, they must have noticed the uncertain expression on our faces, and quickly insisted that we stay till the rain subsides.

    With four people in their tiny living room now, the space did seem a little cramped, but their sofa was rather comfy. As the rain silently fell, that smell of unwashed sex became more intense. The daughter turned on the telly, and the four of us sat there watching some pretty lousy, locally-made cartoon. A few minutes later the mother got up and headed towards the kitchen, presumably to prepare dinner. When she hollered from the kitchen and suggested that we stay for dinner, Neko and I grimaced a little, and politely declined, citing the subsiding rain as an excuse. The daughter looked at us, or rather, checked us out, all the while with a knowing twinkle in her eyes. I was getting horny, and imagined getting it on with Neko in front of the fisherman's daughter, smack in their salty living room floor. That didn't happen of course, and the rain stopped at about five minutes into the four o'clock news.

    As we made our way down the stairs we gave our profuse thanks to them. Just then, a man arrived on a motorcycle, drenched to the skin. That was probably the fisherman. As Neko got onto the bicycle, I made a mental note of the lecherous looks that he was casting her. Seeing how much leg Neko was showing with that pair of shorts she was wearing, I would've done the same if I were him.

    Over dinner that evening, I asked Neko if she noticed the way the fisherman was looking at her, and she said yes. We talked about the size of the women's breasts, and practically drooled over the possibility that the three of them had incestuous threesomes together. That night we retired to our room early and initiated a mindblowing fuck session that began with me forcing Neko to masturbate in front of me till the shivers came. And as I mercilessly pounded it into her, I whispered to her narratives of how we would fuck like dogs in front of the fisherman, his wife and his teenage daughter whom he fucked and sucked every night right in front of his wife as she goaded him on. I told her how I would like to squash the wife's breasts together and furiously flick my tongue over the tips of both her fat nipples all at once. I emphasised the idea of how the daughter would bleat like a lamb each time her father fucks her good.

    When I sensed that she was near, which wasn't easy considering the fact that I had placed a hand over her mouth to muffle her cries, I drove it in both physically and metaphorically, and told her that I will let that pervy but virile-looking fisherman stick his dirty, stinky cock into her while I watched and played with his wife and daughter. I stuck my tongue into her ear, and beneath my palm she screamed like a banshee, her body squirming and twitching in terrifying spasms that fully defined the (elusive) meaning of la petit mort.

    I think we really need a fucking vacation. 

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February 28th, 2006

Fun with Stockings

Posted by kinkylube at 12:49 AM on February 28, 2006 in Journal.

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March 1st, 2006

Hors D'Oeuvres for My Libido

Posted by kinkylube at 02:56 AM on March 1, 2006 in Journal.

It's almost half past two in the morning, and I'm still awake, feeling horny and writing this post for you. Oh well, old habits die hard. And speaking of hard, yesterday afternoon my libido was positively perked by two fortuitous sightings that occurred within a few seconds of each other.

    The first was a middle-aged MILF with a wild, crazy mane of lioness hair and a robust ass built to withstand any sort of heavy-duty abuse you might throw at it. As I turned the corner, yet another MILF was crossing the street, this one younger than the one before. Short-haired, dressed in a white t-shirt and a pair of black, cunt-hugging shorts, she was crossing the street with a really horny-looking expression on her face. The material of her tee was thin enough for me (and everyone else who cared to look) to see the outline of her bra and the breasts that were practically spilling out from their cups. I even risked getting into a little fender-bender just to catch another glimpse. I imagined her with puffy nipples just like Julie. (Shit, this whole thing with recurring characters is beginning to feel like a Tarantino movie).

    All these women prowling the streets and parading their ripe bodies around town, plying the abundance of their tantalising sexual flavour, making my libido hot. A woman once said, "It doesn't really matter where my man whets his appetite as long as he comes home to eat." Now whoever said that must surely be a wise woman, and definitely a most worthy sexual accomplice that any hot-blooded heterosexual man can ever hope to find.

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